In 2000, Madonna collaborated with the French producer, Mirwais Ahmadzaï to create her synth-country endeavor known as Music. Ahmadzaï’s contributions were admirable, yet more experimental than approachable, which could explain why there were only three singles off the album (the title track, “Music”; “Don’t Tell Me”; a non-Ahmadzaï track, “What It Feels Like For a Girl). Yet it’s “Paradise (Not For Me)” that serves as an example of the Ahmadzaï aura: ethereal, yet eerie; synthesized, yet orchestral. “Paradise” finds Madonna’s vocals intentionally drowsy, as she sluggishly labors over lyrics, as if on her (Evita) deathbed: “I can’t remember/when I was young/I can’t explain/if it was wrong/My life goes on/but not the same…” At just over 6 ½ minutes, this song of hindsight amid life’s finality unfortunately lingers, almost not knowing when to exit. Considering its haunting feel, that may be its intended goal.

Madonna did feature the song in her 2001 Drowned World Tour as the introduction to the Japanese-themed section, appearing in a short film as a geisha drawn toward a large celestial radiance: “There is a light/above my head/Into your eyes/my face remains.” Madonna, an Italian-American pop star, dressed in Japanese-geisha regalia, singing in French makes for a striking sight and sound. Above the stage, four semi-nude male dancers in powdery body makeup, their look inspired by Japanese Butoh performance artists, hang upside down in midair, wrapped in sheets like cocoons (gestation). They’re soon released from the cocoons (birth) and lowered down, free to walk upright (life). As this lead-in concludes, they open their mouths, and in a stunning effect, appear to glow or burn from within (death; cremation). Madonna’s geisha also experiences the same fate, emitting a red ray of light (sorry) from her mouth toward the audience, practically burning the macabre images into their (our) minds.

Madonna almost knew that “Paradise (Not for Me)” was not for everyone, yet she realized its artistic potential in a live capacity, aware that showcasing startling imagery could only make this eccentric track all the more powerful. The song was also featured on her Confessions tour, but as a breath-catching ballad with the vocalist, Isaac Sinwani. This adoption of a more traditional acoustic arrangement still allowed her to perform the Ahmadzaï experiment, yet via softer, friendlier means.